smitethepatriarchy:

dissonantchaoticeuphoria:

smitethepatriarchy:

jojostarz:

When people say they remember their childhood perfectly and not in bits and pieces with mostly a black void of nothingness like me

?? hoW in th e fuk ???

For a long time I’ve wondered if this is normal or a result of continuous verbal and emotional abuse.

This isn’t normal, it’s the result of abuse, doesn’t matter what kind. Your brain was preoccupied with surviving, not remembering and storing memories. I have two friends who had similar shit childhood that I had, and they don’t remember shit either. And it’s easier to live with no or little traumatic memories, than have all of it on autoplay all the time. I know it makes recognising abuse for the abused person harder, because most of the time there isn’t anything to remember, just little insignificant things and slivers of memory, but if you know the sings of trauma, it’s easier. Also it has to do with overactive parts of the brain during abuse, some parts are enlarged, some are smaller (prefrontal cortex, amygdala, just to name a few), hormone regulation is fucked because of adrenaline and hypervigilance, also abused people learn the harder way in a school environment due to memory problems.

Fantastic.